So mom and dad love me! They felt so bad about me spending all that money on the new parts for computer #1 and not being able to do a thing with it they gave me $400.00 to get the other parts I needed! So now I have my new ASUS A8N-SLI Premium Motherboard and an AMD Athlon 64 3800 processor coming in!

In addition I bought a couple 120mm Thermaltake Thunderblade tri-coloured LED case fans. The case came with two blue LED fans but I'm partial to Thermaltake and I wanted something multicoloured as well. I also invested in the Nikao LCD temperature monitor which keeps track of all my CPU's internal workings. Can't wait for allthis stuff to show up.

In other news I bought my Lorne Greene Canadain Stamps as well as finding an auction on Ebay that sold the elusive Details magazine extra that promoted them. Another glorious addition to an already overpowering collection.

PB has been a bit dead lately but that's expected considering the rush we had not long ago. I'm still running through some new rules and suggestions and I'm still working on the site. I just can't seem to get the motivation worked up the last few weeks to put in a lot of work or chat even for that matter. I don't know why but I just haven't been up to it.

"Needy Evie" ismuch better in case anyone was interested. She spent the whole night reminding me of how I left her. She slept on me afraid even for asecond that I would disappear or something. It was really cute. Well I'm off to bed, mad early again, as that has been the case for the last week or so.     

Okay so "Needy Evie" had a vet appointment today. She had to be groomed and clipped for the summer. The problem is that my extremly mellow cat turns into psycho kitty anytime she has to go to the vet or has to get a bath. She also hates to be left alone. Take all three and wrap them in a nice pretty package with a calico bow and you have the extent of my day.

Evie was not happy that mommy left her at the vet cause they had to sedate her for the better part of the day. I would have loved to have gone with a normal groomer but since she gives herself minor strokes and heartattacks whenever we get her near water we had to go this route.

I got in all my fun stuff for the computer rebuild today and then when I opened up the terminal I realized I needed to upgrade more than I thought. My nifty super expensive video card is not supported by my current Biostar motherboard and AMD processor chip.  Right now everything is packaged up till I can afford the upgrade pieces which probably won't be till next month.

I've looked online and I'm going to upgrade the mainboard to an ASUS A8N-SLI Premium board. I need to have a socket 939 and support chipset for NVIDIA nForce 4 SLI in order to run everything. As for the processor, though I'd love to go AMD Athlon 64 X2 4400 that is way too high in my price range right now. I'm therefore going to go standard AMD Athlon 64 3800 or 4000 depending. Down the road I'll buy the better chip and since the standard 64 is still great quality I'll put it in computer #2 or possibly save it for computer #3, don't know yet.

Okay I haven't been posting mostly because of this problem I've been having with the server. It kept forming huge spaces around my entries and was bugging the crap out of me. A person at the Brand suggested I change the layout, so I did. I think it might have worked too. Anyways the latest scoop on my life.

Dentist has to remove a few bone chips from my mouth next Wednesday before I can progress with a plate impression. I'll let you know how that goes. It looks like I'll be out of work longer than expected. I'm working on different things for PB's (AKA The Brand) site. Had an issue with my graphics card so I bought a new one. I'm going to be upgrading my current computer again! Like when I built her and all the times I upgraded her later she'll be awesome though!

I bought it a new eVGA Geforce 6800 XT SLI ready graphics card, a Diamond Xtreme 7.1 24bit Soundcard, another LiteOn Dual Layer Internal 16x DVD RW Drive but this one has LightScribe and a really awesome Nikao Dragonfire gaming case in black. Down the road after computer #2 is finished my next upgrade wil be my hard drive, then I plan on upgrading my RAM.

I love this computer and she's quite a system. The other desktop is being ornery and though I finished him up for the most part I had to gank a few parts for the main system in my room, so he's back up in the attic till I get back to work.     

Jeeze! Has it been that long since I updated?! Boy time has flown! Well I have some good news for you all you get an internet full of me the entire month of May! Yay!

Due to a recent struggle with my knee and my ongoing dental war, I'm going to be having dual surgeries and will be out of work and on disability for about 6 weeks. My dental surgery is April 26th and I'll have to stay in the hospital overnight. Then a week later they're doing surgery on my knee to remove a third of the inflammed cartilage.

I hope you all like company cause I'm going to be stuck at home for awhile.

In other news I have my entrance exam for college this month wish me luck! I got some books in from The Art Institute of Toronto in Ontario today and was planning out the second part of my doctorate program. For those of you who don't know I'm going for a Doctorate in Computer Science and will be attending 4 different schools along a period of 8 years. The first part of my degree is in Media Arts, the second is in Webdesign and Encryption, third is in Animation and Special Effects Artistry (which also includes music and sound production), and the last part is in  Digital and Computer Technology.

I'm currently still working on PB's site and I'm hoping to get a lot done during my time off if nothing else. I'd also like to work on some of my Bonanza fanfiction and hopefully revv up "Operation: Ponderosa" again.   

All and all the next three months are going to be packed! I just hope I'm ready for it.

As listed in my previous post I had a dental appointment on the 17th. It went rather well and we looked over my x-ray and discussed the first surgery. I don't have an appointment for that yet. I have to wait for my insurence company to okay all this work cause it's very expensive. I should know something in the next few weeks though.

For other news I'm currently typing up the rules for PB and will be posting them this weekend sometime. I have quite a list to go through yet of stuff I need to add and fix, but I'd like to really step aside from the board tinkering for a few months to work on getting the site built. I think the board is fine enough to stand on it's own. The stuff I want to do is basically cosmetic and minor so now would be a good time for me to just handle the admin problems when they arise and post but stop the tinkering so I can focus on my pretty pathetic looking site. Sneddy has a basic setup for the episode guide and fanfiction library but I want to add on to those and get the site finished. Once the site done then I'll go back to the board and work on it again.

Well life is better but still threw some interesting curves my way. The first 2 weeks of the year have been quite packed. For all those wondering what's going on (AKA "My Bonanza Buddies") here's the scoop...

Christmas was alright even through I worked most of it. I worked Christmas morning from 6A-2P and Christmas Night from 10P- 6A. New Years was the same and we had some interesting things happen at Denny's including a fist fight between 2 tables in section 5/6, a woman sneaking duces into the restaurant up her skirt and a couple getting it on in the guys bathroom.

Following that interesting weekend I had a dentist appointment that put me into depression for about a week. Seems that my top teeth are unable to be saved so I have to have them all removed and a denture plate fitted. About to turn 23 and I'm already getting dentures. The thing is my teeth really don't look that bad IMO, but my dentist would know better than I would. I have a consultation with my Oral Surgeon today cause first they're going to pull out my 4 wisdom teeth which 3 of them are impacted and 2 broken molars on the bottom. I'll have that surgery by the end of the month and then in a couple months they will schedule me for removal of my other 13 top teeth.

I knew this was coming but still actually hearing it was still a blow. Hereditary dental problems like soft teeth, small jaw, gum diesease and disforming enamal all run in both sides of my family.

In other news my birthday is coming up next week! Yay! Mom and Dad bought me a LCD TV from Sony for my bedroom and it is so cute! They also got me a real surprise to watch on my new TV... The Complete First Season of SeaQuest DSV  I was so excited! I watched this show all the time when it was on but it's been so long since I'd seen it I'd forgetton a lot about it. The only things I remembered crystal clear from it was the teen idol war between Jonathan Taylor Thomas of Home Improvement and Jonathan Brandis of SeaQuest and how incredibly sexy Roy Scheider looked in his black jumpsuit and white turtleneck playing the sizzling hot Captain Nathan Bridger. Here's proof of that...

(As you've probably all noticed I wasn't paying any attention to either Jonathan and don't worry girls I'm not abandoning my main man Lorne but definitly expanding my horizons! )

Despite the recent distractions though I have written out most of the other rules for PB to help with the Boys Rooms, Actors Rooms and profile sections. I just have to type them out now which will only take me a night to do and put up.

Well I went back to work and except for a shooting pain that happened during a dinner shift yesterday I've been just fine. Friday night was surprisingly dead and I only made $60.00 on what is usually a $100.00+ night. Saturday I did well and was off the floor early. Sunday morning is my usual odds and ends shopping time after work but instead of picking those up at Walmart I bought me a new comforter and sheet set. I can't believe I just went out and spent a little over $100.00 on myself like that! But I didn't have a comforter as mine was a bit shabby so I had thrown it out this summer. I have a hard time spending that much money on myself when the holidays are coming up, but I'm already ahead of the game on Christmas Shopping so it's all good.   

The comforter is so cozy though. It's a solid linen brown and is made of that super-soft luxurious microsuede. It's so comfortable and if anyone knows how cold and snowy an upstate New York winter is then you'd understand. This thing is so warm I actually took my electric blanket off my bed, something I've never done in any winter of my life. The sheets I bought match my room theme perfectly. My room is done in a modernized Victorian Style with a lot of washed out and stone washed shades of Burgundy, Burnt Orange, Sage, Olive, Linen and Ivory. The sheets are striped in those colours and look great with the solid coloured comforter.

Last night at work was funny as we were playing Spanish Music in the back. One of my friends Katie is a music major who's going for her Master's right now in Composition. It's hilarious cause she has absolutly no rhythm and couldn't figure out how to dance. Melissa (a cook) and I are dancing a jazzy style Salsa and she couldn't catch on. I'm determined to take her out clubbing one night and get her to dance.

After work I went to go and get those odds and ends I didn't get that morning. After buying the salad dressing, coffee filters, pop (soda for those of you down south reading) and a new litter box I went over to one of my fav sections, the arts and crafts department. I wanted to buy some Poinsettas to make a new centerpiece display for the dining room table for Christmas. Our Chritmas colours yep you guessed them are white, burgundy and gold. (Yes this is my fav colour scheme). I picked White Poinsettas for a change and they have a beautiful glitter on them that'll match the Mother of Pearl garland on the tree. I just have to buy some cranberries, ivy and a basket now.

I love the holidays! 

Ok first off I'm doing much better. The bruising is all but gone but there's still a good 3 inch long lump. The doctor said that some of the tissue may be torn and ruptured and that it would take quite awhile to go down. The swelling was too bad at the time to give me a definite prognosis on this but I do believe he was right. If I don't see a change in the size by Wednesday (which will be two weeks since the accident) I'll go have it looked at again. As far as the hair-line fracture/crack goes he said it'd be a month or two before that heals. I can still feel it somewhat, but only when I sit a certain way. Tonight comes the big test since I'm going back to work. Yay!!!

I've been so bored lately I'm glad I'm finally getting out of the house.

Well on to something different...

Okay so my friend Nicole from work sent me this in an email a few nights ago. It intrigued me and I thought it might interest some of my friends here on the net. These are questions you never thought of asking you friends. If you're interested in using this just copy and paste it into your journal then just copy over my answers with those of you're own. 

Ready...Here we go.

Have you ever...
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1. Fallen for your neighbor? No (But then again my neighbors were like 60...*looks innocently at Lorne Greene photos* okay so like age has ever stopped me before! )

2. Made out with just a friend? Yes

3. Been rejected? Yes

4. Been in love? Yes

5. Used someone? No

6. Been used? No

7. Been Kissed? Yes

8. Done something you regret? Yes (The new horse I bought pops to mind)

9. Cried to get yourself out of trouble? No (casual flirting with my high school principal, Yes. Hey I never once had Detention) 

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Who was the last person...
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10. You talked to? Robert and Sarah  

11. You hugged? Robert

12. You instant messaged? Sneddy to discuss some things on the board. (That tells you how long it's been since I IMed anyone )

13. You Missed? All my Bonanza Friends (I really need to get back to talking to you all again! )

14. You yelled at? Robert (We got in an arguement at work because I was working injured)

15. You laughed with? My Dad (I always laugh with my dad!)

16. Who broke your heart? Don't Remember (I haven't been emotionally attached like that in quite awhile)

17. Who told you they loved you? My Dad

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Have you / Do you / Are you...
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18. Have a Birthmark? A faint one on my neck. It's a blotch of skin that's a shade darker pigment.

19. Have any piercing? yes, ears (I plan to do my belly button this summer)

20. Have a 6 pack? Sort of

21. Own your own house? No

22. Own a nice car? I plan to this year 

23. Speak any languages? English, Canadian French and Italian (Been reteaching myself that)

24. Cook your own Dinner? Yes! (Though I usually cook for everyone in my house. I love to gourmet cook so my parents always give me weird looks when I bust out the spice rack)

25. Color your hair? No, though I used to in HS. I haven't done it in years and I refuse to now. 

26. Have green eyes? Sort of. They're a dark, murky, swampy looking green though they were brown till I was 17. It's weird.

27. Stolen anything? NO!!!

28. Smoked? Every chance I get!

29. Taken drugs? Perscription Drugs, that's about it. I don't believe in drugs.

30. Obsessive? No, but some people think i am because of my love for Bonanza. I swear that's a passion not an obsession.            

31. Panic? Yes, whenever I have contract deadlines on my artwork or I'm behind on DVDs I owe people and I think they're mad at me. (You know who you are. Sorry guys. )                                

32. Anxiety? Only when I'm overtired, Like a few weeks ago.

33. Depressed? Only when I think friends are mad at me.

34. Control Freak? No, but I do have a tendency to take control of situations.

35. Obsessed with hate? No! I only hate 2 people and with very good reason.

36. Have a tatoo? Will this summer!

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37. If you could be anywhere, where would it be? I'd love to be in college in Toronto where I'll be going in a few years.

38. Can you do anything freakish with your body? Hey small children may be reading! J/K No honestly I can't

39. What feature do you find most attractive on GIRLS? Well considering I don't look at girls I'm going to wing this. Probably hair. I sometimes to talk to my female friends about what products they use and what I use.                                                    

40. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? Depends on whether or not I believe they can handle the job or not. Geena Davis does a pretty good job though!

41. Would you marry for money? If I loved the guy yes, money is always a nice little perk. Just for money though, no. I feel sorry for Gold diggers.

42. Have you had braces? No

43. Do you wear lip gloss? Sometimes. I'm not much for makeup, but I do wear a lot of Blistex.

44. Do you sing in the shower? Yes. Broadway Showtunes.

45. Could you live without a computer? Never Tried, but I'm sure I could manage.

46. Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo messenger? All of the above. I like to keep myself accessable to all the members of Ponderosa Brand in case they need anything. Though lately I haven't been online in awhile.

47. If so, how many people are on your list? All my Bonanza friends, some friends from HS and some fans of my Star Wars fanfiction. 

48. If you could live in any past, where would it be? Late 1950's, 57-59 Hollywood. A lot of great movies were being made and the time was really a golden era for glamourous Hollywood. Not to mention Lorne was unmarried and well so am I.

49. Do you wear white socks? Always unless I'm wearing black pants. I'm very picky about socks.

50. Do you wear shoes? Always. I can't stand sandals. I only wear shoes and cowboy boots.

51. What is your favorite fruit? Pineapple

52. Do you eat wheat bread or white? Both

53. Fav DVD? My Bonanza Collection or Old School Battlestar Collection. As for movies definitly Harry Potter or Star Wars.

54. Do you kiss on the first date? Depends on the guy, the mood, etc...

55. Are you photogenic? Not really!

56. Do you dream in color or black and white? Both. Lorne looks great in either.

57. What are you wearing right now? Jeans, one of my retro style ringer tees, a blue hoodie and brown Skecher shoes.

58. Do you eat a lot of fruit? No but I eat a lot of Vegetables. 

59. Do you have dimples? No

60. Do you remember being born? No but I heard stories about my dad taking bets and laying down odds at the VFW he was a member of and was at with my mom that night. Whether or not I was going to be a boy or a girl and what time I was going to be born.  

61. Why do you take surveys? I don't this is a rare occasion cause it caught my interest.

62. Do you drink alcohol? Once in a great while. About every 3 months or so.

63. Did you like high school? Yes

64. What is the best accent? English especially from Manchester/Liverpool area

65. Who do you want to kiss? I don't plan those things.

66. Do you like sunsets? Yes

67. Do you want to live to be 100? Why Not 

68. If not, why?

69. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? Yes, Many times but I always took great care with them. There are ways to protect against evil entities that I learned years ago. But I don't touch them anymore. 

70. Are you loyal? Very. I never stray from my friends and I back them a hundred percent, if I believe they are right. I'm very protective too.

71. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? Yes. If they're happy with their lives who am I question them? Besides I'm Catholic and I'm very attracted to Jewish men. So I kind of expect others to be tolerant as well.

72. Do you think you can draw well? I think I can. I do sell my work so i must be doing something right.

73. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? I never really did. I've never seen any proof to discredit whether he was real or not. So until you show me proof he's not why can't I believe in his spirit which penetrates everything that is Christmas?

74. Do you write poetry? I did a lot in HS. i have books and books of it. I haven't wrote any in years.

75. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? About 6. I'm not much of a shoe person. I have my brown Skechers, my black Skechers, a pair of athletic shoes, black dress shoes (for those rare occasions), black athletic shoes for work and a pair of cowboy boots which are really plain cause they were meant for outdoor work at the barn.

76. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? Back cause Evie is usually laying on my chest purring and I can't move or I'll wake her.

77. Do you like Cats/Dogs? Both though I'm more of a cat person.

78. Do you lick stamps? Not since the self adhesive ones came out

79. Do you use an electric can opener?  Never learned. We have one at work and I always get Robert to open cans for me cause I don't know how to use them. We've always had hand ones.

80. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon? Yes! They are so cool!

81. Like your name? I like Jo or Josie cause it's short and simple. My full name is Josephine and it bothers me cause it sounds stuck-up and if you've ever met me that is so not me!

82. Were you named after anyone?  My Grandmother

83. Do you wish on stars? Sometimes

84. Which finger is your favorite? My thumbs. Can't draw without those!

85. When did you last cry? When the horse kicked me a week and a half ago. Though that was more like invoulentary tears. I quickly got them under control. As far as voulentarily...when Papa Ted died in June.

86. Who do you admire? Anyone who stands up for what they believe in, and is proud of who they are. Example: I had a group of people come into Denny's a few weeks ago who are part of a gay/lesbian organization at the college campus. One of the guys is really flamboyent and was dressed to the nines in a beautiful red satin evening gown and a blond wig. They were coming from a campus drag party and he was totally cool with who he was and that he was dressed like a woman. Some of the guys I know who I were sitting in my station were laughing. I turned to Shane and said "anyone who had that much selfconfidence should be commended. Too many people are insecure in who they are that they find solace in belittling those around them that dare to be different." They all shut up fast. When I went by they're table I stopped to say hi as I have waited on them before and complimented him on how ravishing he looked. He was so nice about it and said he knows people talk but he doesn't care cause he knows he looks good and then laughed.  

87. What is the 1 priority in your life? Those closest to me. My family, friends, online friends, Evie and Milo (my cats) they all are so very important to me.

88. How many kids do you want? Probably 3 or 4 depends.

89. Any bad habits? Procrastination (I'm not kidding this has gotten out of control!)

Okay guys! Your turn!

Sorry I know I've had a bad habit of disappearing lately. To my online friends and Bonanza collagues I'll understand if you hate me.

Onto my reason and yes I have a good one this time.

Sunday, October 30th my internet went down as Adelphia is going through the transition to Time Warner Cable. Since my internet is through Adelphia I lost that up till this past Thursday while Road Runner was beng installed. I'm sure many of you know about the Adelphia Cable incident this past year so I don't need to elaborate. This did put a serious kink in my work however as I was not able to launch my Michael Landon Theme for his birthday on Monday.

Out of all the themes I had done I had worked harder on that one than any of them. What I plan to do is launch the theme for a weekend long celebration (so all the Joe Girls can enjoy it). I'll launch this theme the weekend before Thanksgiving as I want to see what's going on with the board first before adding anything else to it.

Things were looking good as the internet was going up but then Wednesday came thing's took a turn for the worse. Wednesday night changed the way I'll deal with horses for the rest of my life. Having never owned a young horse I don't know what I was thinking but I got cocky and thought I could handle it.

We (my family and I) went down to the stable that evening to check on him (I work with him 2-3 times a day. This was our last trip of the day). Now that it's getting dark much earlier I was unable to run him in the corral this time as it's not lighted. So I was walking him around and letting him graze while my parents did a once over on the stall. My brother and I were walking him (which I'd done loads of times) when all of a sudden Dak started spinning circles. So here I am under the glow of one lonely lamp trying to gauge the animal's actions with Jason asking me "what's he doing?" all of a sudden he spun really fast and kicked me with both back legs. Now I'm not some 6'2" 200 lb guy. I'm just under 5' 4" and weigh about 160 lb (at the heaviest) plus I'm a girl, so I took that blow really hard.

I remember screaming as he ran off but didn't know it was me making all that racket. It was too dark for me to see where he'd ran off to but the stable is a little more then 50 yards from a unlit street and the only thing I could think of was... heaven forbid he run out there and cause an accident... I didn't want the death of someone at the expense of my foolishness on my conscious. My parents ran out and I remember yelling go get the horse.

My mom came over and helped me up whild dad went after Dakota. Shock had already set in and I was shaking cause this horse had scared me so bad. Dakota was hving no part of stable life and anted the freedom of doing what he wanted like he did before. He tried in the process of my dad going after him to charge and trample both my dad and brother.

After getting him back in the stall I went to the hospital some time later and found out that between the internal hemorraging and swelling that I had a crack in the pelvic bone and a very large hematoma that measures a good 8 inches across. Now the area where this injury rests all I can say is that I'm glad I'm not a guy. The left half of that as well as the upper thigh and where they're jointed is where the damage is most extensive. The doctor said I was very lucky because an inch higher and I might never have been able to have children.

Needless to say I haven't been doing much for the past few days and I took this whole thing as a sign. I've gotten hit by that horse twice already. They say things happen in threes. The second time was pretty bad the third I didn't even want to think about. so I figured God was telling me something and I wasn't going to tempt fate again so dad sold him to a riding stable the next day. I didn't have a whole lot of time to get attached so I'm more upset about the money I lost in this investment then anything.

Money I can make back but my health... Live and learn.